What is Dis-ease?
Looking at Illness through the Shamanic Lens
The Spiritual causes of dis-ease
In shamanism, the space of the etheric is where all physicality is manifested. Traditionally, illness is seen in shamanism as a manifestation of spiritual, emotional and mental energies manifesting in the physical plane. With a certain perception, an illness can serve to be a great teacher. Paying attention to what it is trying to teach you is the key to unlock your journey back to full health.
In my own personal journey, I was challenged by a severe physical illness that left me bed bound, mobilizing by a wheelchair and fully dependent on others for seven long, excruciating years. I suffered from daily seizures, intolerable body pain, dementia, general dystonia, the inability to speak or at times even feed myself. I also experienced several Near Death Experiences. In my quest to reclaim my physical, mental and emotional health, I have learned that dis-ease is a state of being, and that it is entirely possible to recover from an experience that appears as if it would be impossible to do so.
During these times, I also experienced supernatural experiences. Lightning storms at 3am that manifested my grandmother's voice, and by morning, objects were moved in my bedroom overnight. Spirits appearing before my waking eyes, bringing divine messages - some spirits I have come to know through working in a shamanic state, and other beings that remain mysteriously unnamed. Regardless, I feel blessed to be witness to these experiences. Although this period in my life was extremely painful, I would not be the person I am today without being challenged to the very core.
It was one day that I had experienced two dystonic episodes, that I lay on my bed, my brain too short-circuited to create thought. I felt like a wild mustang completely broken and caged. I questioned how much longer I could endure such suffering. Would I be like this for the rest of my life? And - how long would the rest of my life be? I knew that if this continued, I would die.
It was then that I heard a voice very strongly, saying, "There is another way." I was shown this Golden Light in the etheric. Beyond my humanness, or my identity as I had known it before as a kindergarten teacher, a woman, a daughter, or even “Tina” - and anything else by which I had previously defined myself. This Golden Light, called a "Seed" by Spirit, was placed within me, into my second chakra. I was told to feed it, water it, nurture it - and sustain its life-force. I began to believe that there was another life for me, but that I had to die first to be able to walk through that doorway.
I began to focus and visualize that life, which included complete wellness and joy. I recalled stories of ancient people who would magically close open wounds before waking eyes. I hooked into the belief that anything was possible - the most magical phenomena was possible. Now, if you saw the conditions of my illness: being in a wheelchair, unable to care for myself - you may have thought that I may have been denying my reality. But I was very much done with that reality, and my soul was calling for another one. I will forever be grateful for loyal friends, members of my family, teachers and healers who showed up for me and never gave up on me. I needed that dream to be fed and supported.
It is now my sincere honor and passion to be able to serve others who suffer from seemingly insurmountable illness or life challenges. As I see it, all challenges can be overcome with a certain inner power and attitude, one just needs to find it. You are more than you THINK you are! Outside of the small confines of the thinking mind, everything and anything is possible. You are Divine: A part of the Divine Tapestry of All that Is.
Shamanic healing sessions have the capacity to gradually shift your relationship to your dis-ease in a way that is true for you. As you gradually heal and progress back to wholeness - aligned and centered - your frequency changes. In turn, you cease to be the container for the frequency of the illness or challenge. Through my own journey, I found the practice of Transmutation and Sound Healing an integral part of my own healing.
Many people around the country and world, who are in the trenches fighting Lyme disease, continue to contact me, asking for encouraging words, wisdom and advice. My heart goes out to you, and I strongly feel a large part of my Path is to assist those who are spiritually and emotionally struggling with this complex illness, as well as other seemingly insurmountable illnesses. I commend your courage and fortitude.
Fellow shamanic practitioner and Lyme warrior, Jaclyn Ouillette, interviewed me twice in 2018 to go share my own personal journey through Lyme disease and what golden nuggets the illness taught me.
Shamanically, the root causes of dis-ease can be from any combination or all of the following:
Loss of Power
Through the development of human civilizations, humans have sought power. The power to defeat enemies, a rival tribe or clan, or power to overcome a challenge. Yet, what is power? Is it what we have been taught? How are others in your life using their power? And more importantly, how are YOU using yours?
My training in advanced shamanic healing and my own personal journey has lent a deeper understanding of what power means. Personal power has less to do with “overpowering” and more to do with “empowering.” It is an inner flame that will not go out simply because of external circumstances. In fact, this power is to be ignited and then utilized to overcome these circumstances. Often, we tend to "give away" our power to others in various ways. In terms of dis-ease or misalignment, we can give away our power to doctors or others in positions of authority, while dismissing the quiet voice within that knows exactly what we need for healing. Our bodies are wise vehicles. It does not serve to dismiss that knowledge.
There is a very simple, yet, beautiful ceremony called Power Animal Retrieval, in which the purpose and intention is to bring back to a recipient an energy in the form of Power Animal in order to recover lost power. Our Power Animals are individual beings, who have died and passed on, and are now volunteering to be of assistance to us when we need to tap into that support. This support is available 24/7. Historically, shamans have merged and allowed their Power Animals to move through them, thus the shaman wields this power shared by his or her Power Animals. Shamans have traditionally honored the body, bones and flesh of their Power Animals through ceremony and shapeshifting. There is a synergistic co-creation that occurs when bonding with one’s Power Animal, and this experience goes beyond any language.
Shamanically, the force of the shaman’s Helping Spirits is emboldened by this convergence. The shaman is not a shaman without his or her Power Animals and Spirit Teachers. These Spirits choose the shaman in an initiatory process that the neophyte must go through to become what is called the “Hollow Bone.” The particular spirits that are responsible for this process become known and familiar to the shaman, like a deep friendship that dips beyond into other dimensions. I liken it to a hummingbird drinking the nectar of a Divine Flower. We just need to tap into this continual support and sustenance. Power Animals and Spirit Teachers are accessible at any time and are the primary force behind the shaman’s ability to access Divine power.
An intrusion is energy that becomes stuck in a body that does not serve. The source can be external or internal. This occurrence can happen to any sentient being, including trees, animals, children and land. Harsh words spoken from others, misaligned intentions or thoughts can "land" in the energetic bodies and stay to fester. Additionally, repressed emotions that we are culturally taught as unlovable or unacceptable - such as rage or grief, can also become lodged into our own body to create intrusions. It’s vitally important to express our emotions, without directing them at anyone. Directing emotions at others simply creates more damage in the form of additional intrusions, but it is important to acknowledge, allow and express human emotions.
Symptoms of intrusions may include localized or chronic pain, gastrointestinal issues, migraines, back or neck pain among others.
The ceremony needed to remove energy that does not serve is Extraction Ceremony.
Soul loss can be the result of one traumatic experience, or many of them. These traumatic experiences can be so jolting to our being that parts of ourselves, called Soul Essences, leave our being to seek safety from that event. The Soul Essence that leaves can spontaneously return when it is ready. At other times, a Soul Retrieval Ceremony creates the space for this to occur in a compassionate and safe manner. The deeply sacred ceremony of Soul Retrieval opens this opportunity up for the Soul Essence(s) to return. Deeply moving and shifting, this ceremony brings parts of ourselves back, changing our lives into greater expansiveness and wholeness.
As descendants of our Ancestors, we unconsciously carry their experiences in our DNA. The recent scientific research of epigenetics gives us a rational understanding of this. Through the practice of healing the trauma of our Ancestors, we can then shift our own ways in which we relate to the world. For example, if an Ancestor was a victim of genocide, you may carry an unconscious paradigm of victimhood, feeling hunted, or have a mysterious fear of fire. Healing Ancestral Wounding can greatly shift this. Often, an ill person is also a sensitive person who is carrying the burdens of familial patterns that do not align with the truth of their soul.
Believe it or not, curses do exist! They can greatly impact our quality of life in many ways, including financial issues, relationship patterns, "luck" in life, and also our emotional, mental and physical health. Curses can be created consciously and unconsciously, by ourselves and others, in our present lives and in past lives. Curse Unraveling can release others in deep forgiveness and grace. This ceremony has the capacity to shift the energetics of the original intention behind the curse and of corresponding present circumstances that might seem insurmountable.
Contrary to Hollywood cinematic interpretations, incurring a possession usually does not appear as dramatic as some movies portray. However, looking through the lens of shamanism, it can occur. Symptoms of a possessing being can range from emotional liability, unfounded rage, frequent mood swings, feeling out of one's body, dissociated, intrusive thoughts, nightmares and suicidal ideations, as well as ongoing mental or physical health issues. Other symptoms may be supernatural or unexplained activity such as misplaced items or inanimate objects moving, or seeing malevolent spirits. Illness of all forms can be compounded by one or more possessing beings. In any case, the only true way to know is by contacting a practitioner trained specifically in this phenomena. Compassionate Depossession is a process where the practitioner assists all involved to remember the Divinity within. We truly are all one, although some forget this.
A Wound is a particular block in your life, usually created by a series of experiences that in turn create patterns standing in our way to living life to the fullest. Wounds can be ancestral or created in early childhood. Wounds can also be formed from previous lives.